the one and only

growing with the fierce woman in this world.

with her big eyes.

and a loud voice.

who feed me everyday.

who shout at me when I'm not listening to her.

and sometimes I get angry to her.

days to days,

weeks to weeks,

years to years,

and now I almost 20.

crying, laughing, gossiping,

yeah.

I share it with her.

Mom,

thank you for take a good care of me for 9 months,

thank you for teaching me how to walk,

thank you for teaching me how to talk,

thank you for screaming at me when I'm wrong,

you are the greatest gift in this world.


I'll love you until my last breath mom. 
that's a promise.


btw,
thanks for the new gadget.
like it too much ! :*

unusual feeling

benda kecik ja pun.

tiba-tiba rasa macam berat.

tiba-tiba macam mau marah.

tiba-tiba demotivated.

tiba-tiba teda mood.

tibatiba rasa terbeban.

tiba-tiba tekanan.

tibatiba..rasa mau alone-alone.

mau teriak sekuat hati boleh ?

huuuaaarrrggghhhh !

kenapa ni t'lampau tekanan oh ?

hati pun tuba-tiba rasa sakit.

boleh jalan ?

mau jalan tempat yang sunyiii.

tempat yang teda orang.

tempat yang boleh sendiri-sendiri.

mau nangis boleh ?

jarang lah rasa begini.

kenapa tbatiba hari ni ?

tiada pun benda yang bagi beban.

eh ada.

susahnya mau hidup.

but mungkin mau mati lagi susah.

*okay macam sudah banyak amalan mau mati.duh~

::emosiXstabil::

buyuk !

ganggu orang makan no 1.

orang off handphone,

trus p tukar password d fb.

gila ba kau ni !

dasar gila punya boipren !

stupid SORRY

I don't appreciate it !

sittin' in front of the blue phone.

waiting for the reply.

almost 2 hours !

and you simply say sorry for it ?

wtF !

"I need you" la sangat kan ?

then,

where were you when I need you ?

GTH with your apologise !

tQ for the video

dear Mr. A yang saya <3.

tenkiu untuk video yang x seberapa itu.

yang kononnya sampai you sakit sakit buat.

:P

sangat appreciate it.

lain kali buat lagi.

haha

mau post juga tu sini tapi..

nanti orang nampak muka saya yang comel.

saya senyum senyum nampak pic saya dari saya kurus sampai gemuk.

sengaja ka kau tu babe ?

AWAS !

next..

saya mau lagu ...

hm..

once lagi..

nanti saya suru kau nyanyi lagi ah b .

hehehe

wait for your next task.

kau x b'syukur ka dapat gepren yang suru kau nyanyi seja ?

x minta kau beli itu ini.

naaaa

baik kan sayaaa ?

 :P

dia single ?

ni lelaki ni.

baru juga single.

tapi gefrennya ada suda bopren baru.

di tinggal ka kau boy ?

atauuu..

kau yang menyingle kan diri ?

ee takut.

hahahah

permainan ini sangat menakutkan.

you start the game.

and you should end it.

wow

wow

woww

teda ba cerita papaling hot ni skg.

ada juga tapi bahaya.

private talk.

yes we need it.

okay..

kau main game kumpul kumpul :-* laaa ?

wakakakka

ba.

alangalang ba.

minta semuaa adik adik junior.

hahah

okayy..

ini untuk kau ni pumpkin.

kau yang keburingan kan ?

jadi kau pikir ini #stk ni apaa ?

macam harian metro ?

macam sabah times ?

adidiidi

ini kalau ada masa ja baa.

tempat lepas geram.

tempat maki maki.

tempat kutuk kutuk

oppps over !

kbai

PapalingNgantukkk ~

papaling bikin kesian !

I tabik ngan u sebab tahan dengan dat girl.

tapi tu la.

kesian yang amat.

see,

b'kawan pun di control,

apaapa pun mesti satu group,

tiap hari dengar dia bising,

terpaksa tahan sama perangai dia yang suka buat hal,

kadangkadang, garagara wanita itu,

u mula hilang kawan.

lelaki ka lagi begitu kalau takut sama perempuan ?

may be I'm bad,

but I'm not as bad as her.

control tu control juga.

tapi kalau sampai guna fb u untuk post marahmarah kawan lain,

I think u shud be ready untuk hilang kawan sikit demi sikit.

girl u buat hal,

u kena sekali.

kesian u kawan.

musim sakit ?

sittin' in the middle of this living room.

feelin' the fresh air in my hometown.

but sadly,

surrounded by orangorang sakit tekak.

memang sekarang musim sakit ?

hm.

may be ini orangorang yang over dos makan buah-buahan.

macam saya.

dalam perut ada tarap,

ada mangga wani,

ada rambutan.

nasib sekarang belum ada mood lagi makan durian.

and you baby boy,

sakit ?

naaaa

memang kau t'lampau b'jalan ba tu.

x lain x bukan.

jadi kau mau p main futsal ka skrg ?

saya kasi benar juga ni.

mana tau kau TERUS sihat kan.

anyway,

I miss your laugh.

get well soon. 

si nila dalam susu

have you ever heard

"kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga"

have you ?

so just put yourself as the nila

kami semua susu.

putih dan boleh diminum.

kau nila.

ungu dan bila di minum, 

mungkin boleh membawa maut.

if you get what I mean,

then you will understand it.

this is not about racism.

this is about you.

your stupidness lead to a very BIG problem.

okay. saya mula stress bila ingat.
phui
kbai

si girlfriend yang jahat

she doesn't know how to be sweet.

she looks like a girl but she acts like a guy.

she have a very LOUD voice.

she used to have more than a boyfriend in a time.

easily get mad.

when she is PMS-ing,

"DANGER ! IT'S FLAMMABLE . "

if you want to be safe,

then just listen and follow whatever she ask you to do.

 high level of ego.

if she said the she's always win,

then she mean it.

if you think you're right,

what you can do is just shut up and listen to her.

*seriously, this girl is annoying !

she call her boyfriend as si bodoh.

salute la sama lu boy !

paling sabar !

she is gossip girl.

ask her whatever about gossip.

I bet she knows everything.

but don't ask her about global indicator.

or else you'll find out new GI from her.

she'll get mad when her boyfriend ask a permission to play futsal.

walhal, futsal is 5 times better than lepaking sambil cuci mata.

kesian her boyfriend !

this girl sometimes said "pigi mati" to her boyfriend.

she got jealous easily.

but for her,

a man shouldn't be jealous to his girl.

that's why she get mad when her boyfriend start getting jealous.

*bongobongo juga pompuan ni kadangkadang

tapi how cruel pun this girl.

she only have a man in her heart.

she never thought of cheating on her relationship.

even when they're thousand miles away,

she never forgot that she has a boyfriend.

walaupun dia puji every cute guy yang lalu depan dia,

tapi in her heart,

he's the one and only.

amaran : this girl is actually sleepy. cuaca sekarang sangat panas dan bertambah panas apabila dia mula jiwangjiwang. huak thui. *off to dreamland*

sedar diri

sitting in a living room.

listening to Super Bass by Nicki Minaj.

bila duduk sorang sorang ni,

pandai pula bermeditasi.

dan tiba tiba rasa lapar.

then lupa apa mau cakap.

nda jadi sedar diri la ni.

p mencari dulu makanan.

searching for food ~

searching ~

searching ~

searching ~

never mind.

I get my phone.

tut tut tut.

"Hello Mc Delivery" 

hey you !

kau !

jangan kau berani berani sana !

suka hati saya la mau cakap apa !

this blog belong to me.

same goes to that facebook.

kau x payah sibuk lah !

x payah sibuk sibuk guna balik that facebook.

saya yang buat tu.

saya sudah deactivate,

yang kau activate balik kenapa ?

buat facebook baru la !

bodohnya !

jangan buat kepala saya tambah pening okay.

get out from my life !

membencikan !

phui !

entah kenapaa la saya kenal orang macam kau !

tolong la.

jangan ganggu hidup orang boleh ?

saya sedang berbahagia and seriously berbahagia dengan dia !

jadi kenapa ?

masalah ?????

x habis habis buat orang tekanan !

sakit kepala tau kaa ?

cukup cukup la tu okay ?

orang sudah nda mau ba.

tolong la.

please jangan paksa !

I hate this feeling !

jarang la saya suka orang layan saya macam tu.

dilayan macam anjing yang masuk di kawasan rumah orang.

hm.

ya la.

siapa la saya ni kan ?

semua yang kau minat,

saya larang.

semua yang kau mau buat,

saya marah.

then now kena balas gitu kan ?

okay la.

I'm tired of this.

go and enjoy your life.

I'm done with all of this.

I don't think we should move on.

orang cakap kalau rasa tu sudah nda macam dulu,

then what's the point ?

xda kan ?

may be dulu I can't accept the fact that you're not mine.

tapi now I know why it should be in that way.

thanks for giving me this second chance.

but sorry I can't make it.

ingatkan dah stop

what's wrong with you actually ?

you told me last night,

"biar lah perkara ni kita-kita ja yang tau"
okay..

and I stopped ambik tau pasal kamu.

rupanya,

kau buat taik ?

double middle-finger for you !

tolong lah.

susah sangatkah untuk cakap perkara yang benar ?

sampai buat-buat cerita supaya orang kasihan kan kau.

oh !

sedihnya hidup kau !

menguli cerita hingga menampakkan bahawa anda tidak bersalah.

okay let me warn you.

kau tau ?

nanti bila orang tau sebenarnya kau ni menipu,

you'll be alone..

trust me !

sudah berani buat salah tu,

mengaku ja la !

punya ayam.

kasi potong ba kalau takut !

duh ~

paling kesian juga kawans you yang ikut percaya la.

entah lah.

mentaliti kamu semua ni mentaliti budak tadika.

too stupid, too blind to see the truth.

itu baru lah terlampau kawan sampai nda sedar kamu tu sekarang sedang makan tai dia !

teruk oh !

kamu x nampak dia sedang berkepit dengan orang lain ?

and now kamu tengok orang yang dia kasi buruk tu macam mana ?

huh.

bodohnya !

kamu kamu kamu ni semua 2x5 !

jadi sekarang kau rasa kau di atas ?

okay.

x lama lagi orang akan tau perkara sebenar.

saya akan buka mata semua orang !

::JarangSayaOmongKosong::

bad mood. lagi ?

mood tersangat x baik. 

almost two weeks sudah.

hm.

saya tau ini kenapa !

baru tu budak skarang,

hm.

malar bikin panas.

hairan.

ORANG TENGAH HOT,

boleh-boleh lagi dia relax-relax.

macam teda apa-apa.

memang saya x biasa ni kena layan begini.

pandai saya fed up !

suka hati you la mau buat apa.

malas la mau fikir.

boleh gila orang oleh perangai kau.

huh !

migrain terus !

done ambik tahu pasal kamu

your relationship is your problem.

and you need to settle it down.

you know why we involve in your relationship ?

because you are the one who bring us to this dilemma in the first place.

now it getting worst.

so please.

don't put the blame on us when we trying to back up her.

luka di jari boleh hilang.

tapi,

remember.

the scars will always be there.

whenever she saw the scar,

what is the first thing that pop up in her mind ?

ingatlah.

orang akan rasa trauma.

I'm in her side actually.

I wont let you hurt him third !

it won't happen again !

so please.

let she live with us peacefully.

jangan bagi orang harapan lagi okay ?

and jangan pernah buat orang sekasar itu.

karma is always there you know ? =)

we won't masuk campur lagi.

and we hope,

your friends pun sedar diri la kan ?

cakap kami masuk campur,

tapi dorang apa kurangnya.

am I right ?

so,

if we need to shut up,

let them shut up first.

::NoHurtFeelings::

pusing pening kepala

yah.

you should make a life.

jangan terpesong ke jalan yang salah.

atau jalan mati mungkin ?

jangan .

please jangan.

hidup lah kau baik-baik.

jangan lah ingat bagi taik dekat orang ja.

nobody wants that shit !

oh.

atau kau simpan segala T&S itu bersama kau.

itu lebih baik.

=)

tolong lah.

sebab kau saya mencarut x tentu pasal.

sebab kau saya memaki sampai lupa dunia.

astaghfirullah.

-bunyi apa lagi menganggu ni ?! phui !-

sebab kau saya jadi bad mood x tentu pasal.

sebab kau fruities saya jadi down.

it's all because of you !

please don't be proud with your attitude.

'cuz nobody wish to have it.

ew.

aduh aduh aduh.

dia x sebaik yang aku kira !

huargh !

*tenang wahai hati

oh ya.

saya x menghargai lelaki yang berkasar sama wanita.

x kira dari segi suara, atau perbuatan.

it hurts.

and please change boy.

x kan tahun baru, perangai berubah jadi hantu.

kan ?

but anyway.

I still wish you the best with a FU !

hari ke-8

the eighth day in 2012.

how it feels ?

how's your life ?

getting better ?

getting worst ?

what about relationship ?

*malarrr cinta ! haha

okay okay.

ubah topik.

form 1 student,

how it feels to be budak sekolah menangah ?

year 1 student,

masuk kelas masih nangis ?

first year university student,

ready to have senior junior system ?

haha !

second year university student,

apa ?

mentaliti budak tadika ?

OMG !

please write a formal later.

quit from the university,

and please re-register yourself in kindergarten.

don't show your stupidness di sini.

we don't need it.

=)

oh.

first timer couple,

*eh ? ada ? haha

semoga berbahagia !

boleh melalut ?

eh.

it's my blog right ?

okay.

I hate playboy so much.

I hate a boy who act like a guy.

you think you know everything right ?

but sadly,

NO.

you don't even know or understand the simplest thing.

if you don't want to be in a relationship,

then why you want to flirt in the first place ?

sorry to say.

BODOH

the only word that describe you.

your attitude.

kau rasa kau hensem sangat ?

tolong la.

setakat jadi model seluar dalam boleh la.

kau pusing la seluruh dunia.

cari perempuan yang exactly like her.

cakap lemah lembut.

marah pun kejap ja slalu.

always mengalah.

*walaupun kau yang salah

jaga makan minum pakai kau.

setia lagi.

aduhhh ~

kenapa kau x sedar ni ?

there's a lot of people out there yang mau berebut ambik dia.

tapi she choose you.

but apa kau buat ?

left her for another b*tch ?

aw ~

I bet if I'm in her place,

you will suffer for the rest of your life !

-bau durian mengganggu pula-

oh ya.

so kau cakap buruk pasal dia dengan kawan-kawan kau ?

kesiannya kawans kau tu.

tertipu hidup-hidup !

kalau buruk, tapi benar x pa la.

tapi fitnah !

benda x berlaku pun kau uli jadi cerita.

f !

you are the best actor I've ever known !

nampak sangat takut kawans you tu nampak kejahatan kau kan ?

atau kau dan kawan kau semua satu kepala ?

huargh !

kenapa la wujud lelaki macam kau di dunia ni ?

ops.

I just show your berani mati punya relationship status.

hebat kau boy !

*CLAP

semoga bahagia seja la kay.

batu api

you know what is the worst thing about facebook ?

facebook ni batu api.

benda 2 tahun lalu pun masih juga mau di tayang-tayang.

duh ~

tolong la.

siblings fight because of facebook.

married couples fight, juga sebab facebook.

employees and boss fight because facebook.

young couple - break sebab facebook.

haha

funny but true.

 yang sudah tu,

sudah la ba.

apa juga mau balik-balik kasi tengok orang ?

hairan !

what's the point actually ?

okay x mau komen lebihlebih.

nanti di suruh lagi deactivate facebook.

kbai !

dulu cinta, sekarang ?

wow.

hebatnya ayat kau bro.

siap tweet sial segala.

apa kau ingat kau ni x bagi sial dalam hidup orang lain ?

pergh ~

budak universiti.

tapi mentaliti budak tadika.

cuba kau fikir.

siapa lebih sial,

dia atau kau ?

kau ingat kau tu baik sangat ?

banyak la lelaki macam kau di tepi jalan !

in fact,

bukan kau sorang ja lelaki yang hidup di dunia ni.

meninggalkan orang yang sayang sama kau,

untuk p sama orang yang kau suka.

okay.

let me tell you this !

I'm not perfect,

I'm not sexy,

I'm not hot,

but at least I'm not as cheap as her !

that's why you should know this !

she's b*tch ,

she's damn hot !

she's sexy .

she has a tattoo 

* she is muslim

she wear too much make-up

she's ugly.

but,

many of boys out there want to be with her.

you know why ?

because cheap things are easy to get.

and everyone loves cheap thing.

huh !

so ?

it is worth to leave someone you love for someone you like ?

duh ~

one day,

the one you like will leave you for the one that they love.

I seriously never seen a 'cowok matre' before.

and congratulation,

you be the first one that I've ever known.

I rather be single than to have a boyfriend like you !

who judge women by their hotness.

who hit women whenever they're angry.

who give shit  explanation to be single.

get a life la bro !

I forgot how it feels

broken heart ?

yes I did.

it was years ago.

and now I forgot how it feels.

it might be hurt.

too hurt.

until I cry every single night.

I try to smile.

to show to everybody that I am okay.

but still..

orang bilang

your eyes can't lie..

sakit memang sakit.

tapi think twice.

if he did loves you,

he won't dare to chase any girl.

he will stay with you no matter how hard it is.

a playboy needs a playgirl to play around.

dear my beloved apple,

no matter how hard it is,

trust me.

it won't last for forever.

may be it is a step to be with someone who deserves you.

be tough.

and from now on,

enjoy the craziness with us !

weee ~

new year

berBBQ di malam tahun baru with family last night..

it was O-Some !

once in a year..

tidur pun jam 3 pagi sudah..

karaoke nda abis-abis..

wow !

itu buat saya happy !

cukup buat sedih saya hilang sikit..

ya la..

Mr. A sudah jalan p saaaaana..

jauh beribu batu..

sedih kan sedih kan ?

haha

sempena tahun baru ni,

saya harap saya x mudah marah lagi..*haha

too much thing happen in 2011..

tp paling saya suka,

the end of the year saya dapat apa yang saya mau..

I have learn banyak benda dari 2011..

ada juga benda yang saya betulbetul x mau ingat..

benda yang di expect,

nda jadi..

yang jadi,

benda yang x d expect..

btw,

byebye 2011.

I'm done with you.

cubit paha kiri, paha kanan terasa juga

orang bilang,

mencintai x semestinya memiliki.

untuk buat orang lain sedar keberadaan kita,

we need to leave them and give them space..

*pengalaman. :P

biasanya orang akan appreciate bila tu benda sudah tiada depan mata.

and they said,

keep moving and see if he care enough to stop you..

the one who loves you won't do stupid things to you..

if he do,

he seriously don't deserves to be yours !

you just need to be strong enough to let him go..

or else be strong enough to be left..