that's why I leave. =)

learning to love myself

spending time by thinking unnecessary things.

I should stop for a while.

take a break.

and have a new life.

yeah.

this is my decision.

so please.

respect it.

I have my parents.

Families.

Friends.

I want to have my own life.

enjoy my life time with all of those people.

not with only one particular person.

let's be just friend.

=)

how I wish to be single..AGAIN

being jealous is okay.
but please.
I have lot of stuff in my head.
beserabut.
please.
jangan kasi tambah itu beban di kepala saya.
mana lagi exam, test, quiz, presentation, kau lagi.
kalau saya x mampu jadi yang macam kau mau,
please kindly let me go.

sometimes it's scary !

dalam entry ini,

saya ingin memanjatkan rasa syukur kepada illahi kerana saya tidak pernah terlalu obses dengan cinta sesama manusia.

bukan apa la kan.

couple tu,

yala.

couple la ba.

tapi kan.

perlu kah every minutes every seconds mau post di FB pasal boy/girl u ?

aduhh..

ya la..

tau la fb you.

tapi public pula tu.

malu la ba sikit.

belum ada hubungan yang sah suuudah terover begitu.

bukanlah salah ba.

tapi kan..

mcm nda manis ba di nampak orang begitu.

baru kau tu pmpn lagi.

malar mengpost d wall c boyapren 

"i love u",

"hidup tanpa dia"

"hingga rasa indah"

stga..

malu oh..

full wallnya ba oleh kau.

kalau pun sayang,

jangan la menunjuk2 begitu ba.

ew.

geli o !

private and confidential

dear adikku yang x pandai transfer kredit.

sorry la.

ba-bling ba-bling punya pics x boleh upload.

it is private dinner.

bukan di bawah uni saya okay ?

lecturers saya cakap jangan uplod di mana2.

takut menimbulkan konflik bila uplod2 picture tersebut.

jadi saya harap kau bersabar la ah.

nanti kau p kk 10hb,

saya kasi tgk ko.

CANTIK.

mmg ko x malu la ada kakak macam saya.

CANTIK dan MENAWAN !

thousand apologise

never felt this before.

queen of the night ?

wow.

that's sound great.

but yeah.

I should admit that I was the most ba-bling ba-bling last night.

*okay perasan

it's only once in a lifetime.

may be it means nothing.

but there is memory in it.

right ?

at least you have a story to tell when you grow old.

=P

but baby..

I'm sorry for hurting you..

if I put myself in your shoes,

I will feel the same.

seriously,

I'm not doing this suka hati.

and I know you can't accept my explanation.

but I promise.

this will be the first,

and the last.

it won't happen next time.

if it still happen,

I'll make sure the person is you.

I love you so much babe.

please accept my apology.. :'(

crazy in love with him

dear Mr. A,

FYI,

I am sitting in this sofa,

updating this blogg and thinking of you.

-.-

this girl miss you so much boy !

now I start counting days.

cepat-cepatlah pulang ~

sweety

I heart you =)

I have heart

dear you,
let me tell you this.
please take note that I also have heart.
I don't care what you want to do.
playing futsal ?
having meal ?
kemas meja ?
cuci kain ?
watever you want to do,
WATEVER,
please don't forget that I'm visible.
I'm not tunggul,
I'm not batu,
I'm not kertas.
I am living things.
yes I know you are student.
same goes to me.
I'm also a student.
but please la.
jangan you fikir you sorang ja perlu urus masa.
kalau you suka, you contact.
kalau you ada mau buat, you cakap.
tolong la.
you ingat I ni apa ?
kalau you x busy baru you cari saya.
hah ?
apa la tu ?
apa tu begitu ?
saya x kisah kalau kau teda masa untuk saya ba.
ko hantar 1 msg/hari pn x pa.
tapi janganlah tibatiba ada mau buat.
contohnya skg kita b'text,
tibatiba ko cakap mau main futsal.
ok fine.
trus siap main futsal ko sms blik.
then ko ckp mau p makan.
FINE.
ko p makan jam 9,
jam brapa suda ko balik ?
ko pikir ba.
t'paksa sy tunggu ko.
bosan sy hidup begini o !
bagus lg ko x pyh text sy.
baru perasaan tertunggu-tunggu tu teda.
masa ko kan limited.
betul.
actually saat dan ketika ini,
I'm smurfing need you.
tapi apa kau buat ?
manusia ka juga ko ni ?
ko layan saya macam saya ni anjing.
sy x tahan o begini.
bagus sy xda boifren dari ada boifren perangai macam kau !
phui !
sama ja nasib saya kn sama exEX ko.
kalau ko rasa mo layan baru ko layan.
kan ?
I think you should find another girl to be with you.
I'm done with you and your attitude. 

3rd day ~

hairan kan ?

malar 1st day,

2nd day,

3rd day.

ahhahah

tweet it before.

I'm going to be single for 4 days.

and today is the third day.

-.-

macam apaaa la ni.

still sitting in the living room.

just done with my assignment.

bising-bising dulu kejap di blogg,

baru sambung study..

in fact,

besok boleh bangun lambat.

kelas jam10.

yay !

final exam is coming soon.

dup dap dup dap sudah.

I hope I can do well in this semester.

Amin ~

eh ?

lama ka lagi 05 March ?

hah ?

kenapa ?

teda ~

saja ja.

macam lawa tu tarikh.

hahahah

04 March punya activity,

mau p rumah my lecturer.

I'll be the chef !

nerh !

hahahahah

hah ?

already 10PM.

bah I got to go.

kbai

second day ? hm

another day without texting or calling.

just finish watching a movie.

a very sweet movie I guess.

duh ~

I have done my st**id ass*ment on the whole yesterday and today.

so I need to take a short break.

give something relax feeling in my brain.

give them a short time to have their rest.

or may be nap.

-suddenly remember about my sim. I think she is dying.hoho-

I think..

hm I don't think I know..

I don't know what are you doing right know.

are you having fun there ?

I hope so.

huh ?

missing you ?

no no no.

I don't think so.

I just missed your sweet text (phui)

your voice (duh)

your craziness (ahha !)

your stupidness (yeah ~)

okay.

whatever it is.

I just seriously miss you.

there's too much gossip that I need to talk to you.

and I smurfly need to shout all about it NOW !

how stressful life is.

huh.

I hope everything gonna be okay.

soon.

*sigh

first day

halu haluuuu !

imma single lady

imma single lady !

-.-

at this moment,

I'm sitting in this small living room,

hoping that our group's number is not the first presenter for tomorrow.

Amin ~

janggal rasanya bila handphone tiba tiba sepi kan ? 

=P

yeah ~

kinda weirdooo !

bila dengar ja LionKing,

trus t'kejut.

ya la..

siapaa juga tiba-tiba text kaan ?

maka c Mr. A sedang berada ntah di mana pada ketika ini.

hah ?

sedang apa ?

dan di mana ?

xD

x salah menghiburkan hati yang kurang happy.

___________________________________________________________

ada satu.

I remember.

which one is better ?

berpura-pura suka atau just tell 'em the truth ?

memang la tell the truth kan ?

but...

the question is,

when I tell the truth,

are you willing to accept it ?

'cuz I'm pretty sure if I tell you the truth,

I won't talk to you anymore.

 EVEN WITH YOUR SINGLE APOLOGISE.

big X !

mode : seriously fed-up with that kind of attitude. bluek

all about customer service

sakit makin teruk..

so I decided untuk nda p kelas petang..

mau p klinik kononnya..

okay..

semangat ni mau dapat ubat..

mau sihat kan..

sampai sana jam 2..

yala..

jam 2 baru buka kaan..

I mean 2 petang..

wow I'm the first pesakit !

dalam hati 

"nda lama la ni. hee"

tapi..

jam 2 dapat number..

dari saya sorang dalam klinik tu,

tiba-tiba jadi dua pesakit,

3 pesakit,

4 pesakit..

belum pun di panggil.

may be orang di kaunter tu nampak muka suda  bida kan,

then she said "kejap ah dik, doktor tengah solat"

okayy...

time rehat dia buat apa ?

guess what ?

jam 3.30 baru saya dipanggil untuk dapat rawatan..

hmm masih sabar lagi ni..

patutnya sudah jadi doktor tu kan,

otak pandai berfikir ba juga kan ?

ini orang minta MC,

dia bagi surat pengesahan mendapat rawatan pada jam sekian sekian.

duh ~

bila saya cakap saya still mau MC.

dia bilang "sama juga dengan ini. ini pun valid juga ni. alang-alang juga xda lagi kls ko lps ni "

okayy...

apa yang kau fikir ni actually ?

sudah saya cakap lecturer saya mau MC.

kau suruh lagi bagi tu.

-.-

teruk juga service kamurang ni.

sudah saya tunggu sana 1 jam lebih,

saya minta MC untuk satu hari pun kau bising.

menyesal saya p sana oh !

dasar makan gaji !

baru kencang-kencang lagi suara sama saya.

hoi !

kami bayar ba tu untuk dapat service kamu.

BUKAN FREE !

tiap sem kami bayar yuran.

bukan tiap sem pun kami p sana mau minta ubat !

patut lah x pandai maju !

saya doa ja next time anak kau rasa apa yang saya rasa !

p/s : orang berbudi, kita berbahasa.

orang makan gaji, haram jawabnya !

why cheat ?

I don't care what you want to do.

Your words.

Your actions

Your promises.

but I seriously care if  "LIE" takes place in any of the above.

we are normal human being.

do you like it when someone is lying to you ?

do you enjoy hearing the lie ?

hearing the lie when actually you already now the truth.

if you hurt me with the truth,

don't worry.

it is just for few weeks.

but when you hurt me by lying,

I won't forget it FOREVER !

you try to hide it from me.

I can see it.

you are trying very hard.

but I'm sorry baby.

please remember this.

a Liar can't lie on a Liar.

I'm not too stupid to understand this game sweety.

about the lie..

did you live happily with it ?

if yes,

then move on.

and sorry,

I don't enjoy it and I need to live with my own style.

whenever you need me,

then you'll find me.

whenever you need your own time,

you never care about me !

should I say that the worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to ?

saya kena

tadi bangun awal pagi,

kesiannya.

tekak rasa gatal.

tengah hari mula batuk-batuk.

baru orang-orang jalan,

tinggal saya home alone.

and now gaduh sama Mr. A.

please la.

teda mood mau gaduh oh skrang.

sudah panas.

tambah panas !

semudah itu ?

told ya.

promises are made to be broken.

a big CLAP for you for breaking the promise.

*clap

and thank you for let me waiting.

waiting.

and waiting.

saya memang suka menunggu ! =)

and I don't appreciate any stupid reason anymore.

if you can't accept it,

then please LEAVE.

I think you should have your own life.

and remember one thing,

please don't complain about being lonely.

I was there for you,

but you completely ignored me.

please don't act like you care !

let's end it here.