I should be grateful

before continuing my revision,
I take a break by reading some news for today.
I think I'm the only one who had the toughest life.
unfortunately, I'm not.
there are many of them out there suffering because they don't have enough food to consume.
children under 10 years old,
they supposed to be sitting in the school and have an education.
but they don't.
they don't have money and they choose to work.
most of them work in the restaurant - washing dishes.
some of them work as the buruh kasar.
I just can't imagine how would I be if I'm the one who live in their life.
I should feel grateful for having such a beautiful life.
I can eat whenever I want.
I'm in my way to finish my diploma.
I sleep in a very comfortable house.
I still have both of my parents.
I have my lovely siblings.
I have a big family.
and I also have him.
most of the time,
I get what I want.
thanks Allah.

wake me up when this dream is over

mimpi ngeri yang nyata

kadang-kadang kita salah nilai orang.
we choose to make our own conclusion.
we refuse to hear the explanation.
and we make the wrong decision.


sometimes we think that we are totally in love with someone.
but when it comes to problem.
we keep trying to put the blame on them.
we never think what will be the consequences,


"I trust you" is 100 times better than "I love you".
if you heard the bad things about you love one,
what would you do ?
if you really do love him/her,
you'll listen to them.
if not,
then you'll not listen.
worst, you might left them behind.
that would be very hurtful. 
huh


Patient - that is totally not me.


just imagine.
someone threw you away.
just because a small little thing.
which can be handled in a small discussion.
but you don't take that 'small discussion' as the priority.
and you end up with nothing.


after you almost giving up,
with your hopes, wishes and whatever,
they just suddenly come back to your life.


not because you are in love with them,
you can let them enter or leave your life whenever they like.
it is unfair for you.
lupa.
dunia tidak pernah adil.


A little bit appreciation should be fine. 


The scars is still there sweety.
and it will always remain there.

1300-13-1300

I was trying and trying and keep trying to call that number.

from 2024-2055.

but sadly I can't.

and I'm very upset and I'm seriously frustrated.

should I say the f word?

okay.

I don't think so.

I don't know why.

but I think your line must be QUITE BUSY huh ?!

this is the 3rd time.

I repeat.

THE THIRD time where your company doin' S*** to me.

wonder what the first and second ?

first :

one morning.

I call that number to order for our breakfast.

My order was taken on 0816.

they promise us that the order will be delivered within 45 minutes.

you know what ?!

we were waiting for almost two hours !

I called the number on the 1st hour,

they answered me this

"we are very sorry about that. I will check with the nearest mcD and I have complained about it to our manager"

okay not bad.

and we still waiting for them.

but still.

they don't show up.

then I call the number AGAIN.

and I said

"my family and I have been waiting for 2 hours but our order still haven't delivered yet.I wish to cancel my order"

and the operator apologise 1 more.

what happen next ?

suddenly someone knock on our door.

when I open it,

it is the deliver-boy.

okay.

and I said 

"sorry. I've cancelled this order actually because we've been waiting for almost 2 hours"

and the boy said

"we are really sorry miss.we just get your order on 0930.there is something wrong with our system. I am very sorry miss"

and I just being good to that boy and paid for the bill.

second:

before we started enjoying our meals,

we check the order first.

whether the quantity is more or less.

and once again.

they missed 1 order.

when I see the bill,

I've already paid for the order.

then I call them once more to get the order that they missed out.

see?

how careless they are.

they're trying on my patient actually.

dear owner of the number,

I called because I want to eat your food.

I tried so many time,

because I'm hungry.

but what I get is only f word.

FRUSTRATED.

and I'm not in my mood to read my notes.

it is all because of you !

when no one cares

Love of my life - you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know -
What it means to me

Love of my life - don't leave me
You've stolen my love and now desert me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know -
What it means to me

You will remember -
When this is blown over
And everything's all by the way -
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you - I still love you

Because you don't know
What it means to me

:: this song....nvm ::

confuse

if a boy told you that he loves you,

but keep hurting you every second,

don't trust them

if a boy said he misses you every single minutes.

okay, again.

it's a LIE baby.

I don't know why.

but most of us now LOVE to LIE.

right ?

is this Pinochio's era ?

duh ~

zaman panjang hidung.

oh yeah.

I don't think by saying "sorry",

you can fix the problem.

yeah ~

I saw this on FB 

" dear girls,

we said sorry because we want to end the fight.

sincerely, boy"

duh.

like I care.

I smurfly don't care about the statement above.

that's why I don't accept sorry easily.

"dear boys,

we know your motif and we are not stupid. we're actually giving you the second chance.

sincerely, girls"

jangan tunjuk baik sangat dengan kami wahai jantan-jantan di luar sana.

1 lagi,

I hate those who keep saying sorry but they don't change their attitude.

kadang-kadang macam orang bo*oh pun ada.

sorry is just a word.

whether you mean it or not.

if you really mean it,

suuudah saya nampak effort sana.

tapi kalau perangai still macam *a*jing,

naaaa.

di sana kita pertikaikan kata-kata maaf yang diucapkan sebelum ini.

I'm waiting my Prince Charming to take me as her Cinderella

jangan masuk campur

we fight everyday.

so what ?

we argue every hours.

problem ?

I'm angry.

don't disturb me.

I fall in love.

jealous ?

I'm broken.

your advice is not required.

I own this blog 100%.

whatever I wrote is what in my mind.

I'm not creating this blog for you to judge me.

'Cuz I don't post everything about me in this blog.

so you don't have the right to talk about it !

yes it is public view.

if you want to stalk it,

then stalk.

but if you know me for only few months,

seriously,

you only know 1/1000 about me.

then STFU.

pain, go away !

the moment when I got my headache+migraine.

super LIKE !

I feel like cabut cabut this rambut 1 by 1.

biar rasa ringan !

dear sesiapa sahaja yang berada di sekeliling saya,

please go away.

don't disturb me !

I'm suffering !

dear kepala,

if you still sakit,

just wait what will you get !

phui

layan perasaan ~

serba tiada tiada

saya gila atau dia yang gila ?

soal cinta luar biasa

lama-lama bisa gila

(Y)

admire him

cute and sweet.

I want someone like him.

exactly like him.

<3

silly me

calling someone..
tut..tut..tut..
"the person you call.."
okay..
may be sudah tidur..
never mind..
tapi tibatiba rasa mau call lagi..
and dialled his number again..
ni kali kena sambut..
okay..
and I asked "kenpa x sambut tadi?"
then he said "ada call meh?"
wtF ?
saya x tanya la kalau saya x call !
then saya pn cakap la in a very frustrated way "x la"
boleh boleh dia cakap lagi "na kn. memang kau x call pn"
ya.
memang saya x call.
may be yang 1st time tu saya call my scandal.
nasib x ketara kn.
=)

love letter

dear my beloved boy,

sorry for being too kurang ajar.

I mean..

ya la..

almost everyday I maki maki you,

and you cried everyday because of that.

I can't handle my anger.

and I need your full support to change.

sorry sangat sangat.

btw,

I suka la kawan kawan u.

jarang la ba yang nda ngam sama sy ni.

pandai u pilih kawan. =)

I suka bila you nyanyi untuk I babe.

sweetnya !

p/s : missing you.

saya bukan siapa-siapa

petang tadi ada orang ni.
cakap lepas skul mau call.
tapi nda call.
rupanya t'tidur sebab penat.
then ptg dia text.
kasi ingat mau isi kredit dia.
may be risau x t'reply / call KAWAN.
then tadi b'text tibatiba hilang.
p main bola ?
okay.
sanggup p main bola sampai tengah malam.
walaupun besok mau bangun awal.
tapi bila tengah hari,
cakap penat la kan ?
=)
never mind.
I get it.
x perlu pujuk saya.
saya x merajuk.
sorry saya baru sedar saya ni siapa.
sorry suka ganggu you.
saya tidur dulu.

I believe in Him

last monday was our last presentation.

we need to present about the tour operator/travel agent that we've choose.

seriously,

the day before the presentation,

saya panic gilagila.

tersangat panic !

ya la.

because the one who evaluate our presentation is the most GARANG punya lecturer.

b'gegar lutut !

kami present ni benda on 2PM.

sama ada saya terlalu nervous atau excited,

sebab I woke up on 5 in the morning untuk b'siap.

huh !

dari bangun tu sampai mau present,

I keep praying.

saya x penah sepanik ini !

time kumpul dengan group members,

kami susun semua kerja kami.

and we practice our presentation di toilet !

saya bagi tau la group saya ni,

"I want to be the first presenter. I mean our group"

dorang pun sokong.

bila sampai kelas,

rupanya bukan volunteer.

dorang mau cabut undi.

baru adil.

and yes !

as we wish.

we are the first presenter.

memang present tu b'gegar la juga.

takut kan.

tapi kami present seja apa yang ada.

bila habis present,

kami tunggu la soalan dari lecturer yang garang tu.

tapi bila lecturer tu bersuara,

macam mau jatuh air mata oh.

ya la.

dia bilang kami present dengan baik.

and group kami the first yang present the best (compared to the other class)

then..

nda sia2 bangun awal.

thank you Allah. 

i HATE surprise !

we have a fight last week.

then he told me that he won't came back last weekend.

macam budu la juga when I know that.

then on last saturday,

I went to my uni,

took my test,

and thinking

"bongo ni lelaki tibatiba nda balik!"

ya la.

he told me that he already cancel the flight ticket.

lepas habis test tu,

I text him.

then tiba tiba he said yang dia tu d perlis suda.

duh ~

bikin panas punya lelaki.

nda mau balik sini,

tapi p perlis.

phui !

saya ni mau kasi hilang la konon ni rasa sakit hati dan frust kan,

then bawa la my girl p KK.

kesian kami.

naik bas ja.

baru b'diri lagi.

huhu

sandi ~

orang ni mau p CP mau kasi hilang frust.

tapi tibatiba ni kawan mau jumpa kawan dia.

baru mau kasi tinggal orang sorangsorang.

=.="

jahatnya la ~

setelah saya pujukpujuk mau ikut dia,

dia nda mau bawa,

terpaksa la duduk sorangsorang tgu dia.

tapi tapi tapi.

nda lama sedang duduk tu kan.

ada kambing lalu di depan.

ya la.

macam mimpi kan.

then saya fikir.

fikir lagi.

dan fikir lagi.

rupanya bukan mimpi.

guess what ?

c Mr. A tibatiba ada depan mata.

duh ~

bongo kan ?

trip sweet lagi.

-.-

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1^st March 2012 on 20:48 (GMT +8)

This is what I want.

This is what I wish.

*I lie

This heart still loves you.

Just like 4 years ago.

It never changed.

And I think,

You are the one who changed.

Baby,

It hurts me so much.

You never trust me.

Right?